A Dangerfield Manifesto Update September 28th, 2007

Listening to "What They Gonna Say To Me" Beanie Sigel.

Mood : Reflective

I left you all with my last thoughts on the company I was dealing with in releasing my book... Well it looks as if we are going to reach a deal..
Happy Happy Joy Joy....

I'm mulling over ideas on what the sequel will be...if one...it only makes sense as i have a couple of more stories to tell...one way is to further delve into my character...another is to further tell my story... Or I can just go in a totally new direction.... I guess we will see in the upcoming months.....

I recently had small conversation with a lovely lady who posed the question...would I want to be good at Love or be good at making money...?

I stated that I've wasted lots of money in life as it has never been a problem to make money...

I would rather be be happy with a good love...I'm constantly suffering from the pain of inner demons eating me alive...No amount of money can push these demons away....but maybe if i was better at handling my relationships It could help....Fuck money give me love....but.................. Love doesn't pay the bills!!

I'll close out with a Poem I am making public for the first time...

Entitled " Addicted to Pain"

I’m tired

Of the people in my life

Irritated very easily

Tired of this fucking show

This artist I’m working with

Maybe it is more than I can chew

Or is it more than I want

No hope

No talent

I am just weary of shit

When I stop spending money

When I am not partying

Some of my friends stay away..

Then I ask

Are they really my friends in the first place?

I am failing myself by allowing people to continue to step on my heart

Got rid of the woman in my life

Maybe it’s a start

Presenting myself with the opportunity to shed the unneeded skin

The unneeded drama

The useless pieces of shit out of my life who are not good for my mental well being

I gives a fuck

Fuck them bitches

Fuck them niggaz

How can I ask them to treat me better

When I don’t respect myself enough to not deal with them

I must not love myself

I must not love sanity

I must only enjoy the pain

I must be addicted to the pain…….

Listening to : "Full Of Smoke" By Christion

Mood: Relived

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A Dangerfield Manifesto Update September 25th, 2007

Currently listening to "Fallin Out" by Keyshia Cole
Mood Creative...

I have been negotiating with several companies about releasing "A Dangerfield Manifesto" through their companies... I find that if you have money to put up...getting a company to distribute your book is alot easier than a record deal...I've identified one company and they are the front runner in terms of what they offer for my money...The one hold up is that the price I would have to pay for my own book...it seems outrageous and i will not sign with them if the terms don't change.... I will be able to retain 100 percent ownership of the copyright....but If they don't change a couple of things...The biggest problem being final approval of final edits and price for my OWN MUTHAFUCKIN BOOK!! Then i will sign with a lager company who will take 60 percent of everything.... 40 percent of something is better than 100 percent of nothing....

I will leave you with some thoughts for the day...

Life is tough...I refuse to lower my expectations....

Without a solid plan things are destined to fail....
any successful corporation has a plan that they have stuck to...I am a business minded man who continues to torture himself with my hope for a better personal life... I'm a pessimist at heart...the fucked up thing is that I have an optimistic mind.......

Now listening to
teachme Musiq Soulchild....

Mood....Relieved

A Dangerfield Manifesto Update September 24th, 2007

Currently listening to :

I Want to Know What Love Is

by Foreigner

Current mood.... Hungry for success....

It has been a struggle to come out with this book. Sometimes I feel dragged down by the energy of those close to me......

I ask...have you every been frustrated by other people around you?

Frustrated by their inability to follow through with what they say?

Frustrated by their constant talk about what they are going to do with a lack of action?

Have you ever felt as if sometimes it is just best to say nothing because people don't necessarily want to hear the truth from your mouth?

Sometimes I get tired of the position I have put myself in.

I have become a hostage by my own love.
The love of those close to me, unconsciously I despise being looked upon for leadership.

But my ego won't allow me to take the backseat.
It's crazy..My hunger for a glory, I get self satisfaction from being the first option people turn to when they need help...crazy,sick....I don't know


I am making so much progress with the book...I am close to finalizing a release date, finishing up the cover and final edits as we speak.....It is great feeling.

I'm in love with the new Keyshia Cole album.....It's no secret I have a special fondness for hoodrats who make it out the hood....lol... I especially love track #3 called Fallin Out...I've decided to add it to my unofficial soundtrack to "A Dangerfield Manifesto".

I will be filming the trailer for "A Dangerfield Manifesto" October 13th- October 20th

Contact me if you are interested in participating....

I'll leave you with couple of thoughts from my mind this past week

I've been hurt so many times before...just tired of hurting....tired of pain...I'm a man full of contradictions...A man who has made his share of errors...a man whom from the outside appears to have made some decent decisions...except love...my decisions have helped everyone except for myself.. Why do I continue to do this to myself. I thought I could be strong enough to handle this...but I'm not....I'm so mentally fragile...so mentally weak...


2008 A Dangerfield Manifesto will be in stores.....Stay tuned for more Drama from Dangerfield Artistic Entertainment

Now listening to " When a Womans Fed up by" R Kelly